B.A.P-1004 Angel

You’re like an angel, who has left me and gone somewhere
I need you

I don’t know how I’m living
After you left me, I’m going crazy
Every day, every night
I can’t even sleep
I’m all alone, drinking away, cry

So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day)
I can still hear your voice
Come back to me (I don’t have anyone) Come back to my side (but you)
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

Look at me now
Come to me now
(Come back to me, how am I supposed to live?)
Look at me now
Come to me now
(How am I supposed to live without you every day?)

I didn’t know you would really leave me
You were like an angel
Why am I such a good-for-nothing?

Oh no, you have turned away from me
I’m a fool who has lost you
I’m like a beggar
I can’t do anything without you

So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day)
My wasted self is so pitiful
Hug me (I don’t have anyone) Embrace me (but you)
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

It’s like I’m so out of it
I’m so blank every day
After you left, I’ve become ruined
Come back to me, I only had you

Hurry and save me
Stop, please don’t go far from me (don’t leave)
Never let you go

I want to find you
Where, where, where am I going?
To the place where you are
A better day, a better day, a better day
You’re like an angel

The reason I live is you
I don’t think I can see you anymore, I think I’m really dying
The person to love me is you
Shine on me in the darkness

Look at me now
Come to me now
(Come back to me, how am I supposed to live?)
Look at me now
Come to me now
(How am I supposed to live without you every day?)

What really struck me the other day was how easy it was to delete history.  No, I don’t mean that you can travel back in time and change, say, the outcome of the French and Indian War.  What I mean is the history in your computer.

            Technically, you can argue that it isn’t “deleting” history so much as “concealing” it.  But that’s not what I was thinking about either.

            Many people have asked me over the years, “What would you change if you could go back in time?”  Usually, I’d just shrug it off with a simple response: “I don’t know”.  If I was feeling feisty, maybe I’d say something along the lines of, “Your birth”.  However, I’ve never really thought into this question.

            I remember a comic that I stopped reading after perhaps the first chapter.  It wasn’t so much boring as that it didn’t really interest me.  Maybe that means the same thing, but it doesn’t really matter right now.

            Anyways, the story plot went something like this: A man paid money to go on a tour back to the dinosaur ages to hunt a dinosaur.  However, after seeing the dinosaur crashing around in the forest, he became too scared and decided to back out.  The other men went to hunt the dinosaur, and the tour guide warned the man to stay on the path that had been carved out by the company.  However, the man accidentally stepped off the path and onto a butterfly.  When the crew returned home, they were shocked to discover how changed their time was.  Their surroundings had changed, and even the English they perceived was broken, with plenty of grammatical and spelling errors.  All because of the death of a small, seemingly insignificant butterfly.   

"The fluttering of a butterfly's wings can effect climate changes on the other side of the planet." - Paul Ehrlich

Summon the Ancients-Society's Decay

I walk amongst the scum of the earth
Back stabbing liars and hypocrites
I refuse to settle this
Last time I try to do this
I am enslaved
With all of them 

Fake politicians guide us 
They determine the disease 
I will terminate this
 I will not ties
Bringing these eyes upon mankind 

Fix this race 
Tell these lies
This is not the same
society is wasting
 I will watch society decay

This is not the way it should be
everyone just is a two faced thief
I've watched this so many times
This will all crumble before us
Bitter hearts will beat the same in this hell
This all could be avoided
I'll see your face in hell

Today, someone correcting my essay asked me if "gesticulation" was a real word.  I was flabbergasted.  That was my favorite word in middle school, maybe even in 6th grade!  And a high school senior was asking me if it even existed.  It would have been okay if he didn't know what it meant, but the fact that it wasn't even familiar to him shocked me.

People have been praising the new revised version of the SAT because now that students don't have to study "weird" words, they can put more effort into the other sections and have less stress.  But even though you might not use those words in regular conversations, the fact that you have an expanded vocabulary might come in handy in college or writing formal letters.  Now that people don't have to study "weird" words (oh come on, words such as "spew" and "spur" are considered SAT words.  Everyone should know them by the time they have to take the test), there might be a general decline in the quality of writing people can expect.

Now, I'm not saying that my vocabulary is amazing or anything ( in fact, that was my weakest section of all).  I'm merely saying that if society starts to undermine the importance of a strong vocabulary, we might as well use Newspeak.  In fact, in the book 1984 by George Orwell, it states that "the whole aim of Newspeak is to narrow the range of thought", and that "in the end we shall make thoughtcrime literally impossible, because there will be no words in which to express it".  You learn to associate certain words with your experiences, but without those words, the value of those experiences disappear.  Without the means of expressing your reactions, the stimuli is rendered obsolete.


This is part of a song called I Ain't Got (A Good Enough Vocabulary): http://www.songsforteaching.com/fillyourhead/iaintgot.htm

Part of the lyrics are below:

She's so loquacious, tenacious, sagacious-but not too spacious
She's inscrutable, beautiful-it's irrefutable.
Never meek with us, obseqious, salutary when she speaks with us.
Munificent, beneficent, yeah she's magnificent

But she won't go out with me-because
I ain't got a good enough vocabulary
No-no-no she ain't got time for me-because
I ain't got a good enough vocabulary

Fear Factory-Scapegoat

He has not confessed
He has made no statement
Charges of murder
Have been accepted against him

Judges have decimated
Meanings of our laws
Already guilty?
Something has a flaw

Wrongly accused
Blindly confused
Open your eyes
Try to realize

Don't you know
You can't see
Too damn blind
To judge me!

Wrongly accused
Blindly confused
Open your eyes
Try to realize

Don't you know
You can't see
Too damn blind
To judge me!

Laws are meant to follow
But they've misled you
Conceal their meaning
So they can suit you
Misjudged by the system
No one every knows
Adding injury to insult
No one ever knows
No one
No one knows
No one
No one
No one knows...

Judges have decimated
Meanings of our laws
Already guilty?
Something has a flaw

Wrongly accused
Blindly confused
Open your eyes
Wake up, realize!

Scapegoat
Scapegoat
Scapegoat
Scape, goat
Scape, goat

How much government intervention are you okay with?  What's your line?  Has it already been drawn?

We had this discussion in class today comparing 1984 to modern America.  Though citizens value their free speech and numerous other rights, how much freedom do they actually have?  How do they know they aren't being watched right now through their cell phones or their computers?

For me, I'm okay with government screening everyone in airports and other public transportation.  However, they should not screen every conversation and household to protect citizens because it violates basic rights.  Even if family members were killed and the government desperately wants to capture the criminals, I would not support this notion.  

Before the Holocaust, Germany was starving from World War I.  Hitler hoped to keep the German citizens safe, and put his anger on a tangible scapegoat: the Jews.  The Germans couldn't blame human nature, as there would be no way to fix the situation.  Prejudice may also express anger:  when things go wrong, finding someone to blame can provide a target for one's anger.  In the late 1600s, New England settlers, after suffering devastating losses at the hands of Native Americans and their French allies, lashed out by hanging people as witches.  Following 9/11, some outraged people lashed out at innocent Arab-Americans. Philip Zimbardo once said "Fear and anger create aggression, and aggression against citizens of different ethnicity or race creates racism and, in turn, new forms of terrorism" (my psychology class was fortunate enough to hear his speech at Chapman University about heroism).  

Nevertheless-Time

You keep your distance
Like, for instance, when you told me we should take it slow
It's been forever.  It's now or never
and it might be time to let this go. 

I know that I - I’ve gotta get away ‘cause I’ve had enough…

Time, you always needed more time
But all we've ever had is time
So now this is the last time, but I'll be fine

Not that I'm caring
but it's apparent that you're not what you pretend to be
I thought I knew you
I'm seeing through you, and you never saw yourself with me
I know that I-I've gotta get away 'cause I've had enough....

Time, you always needed more time
But all we've ever had is time
So now this is the last time, but I'll be fine

I've gotta let this go
It's holding me down
It's holding me down!
I've gotta let this go!
I know that I-I've gotta get away 'cause I've had enough
I know that I-I've gotta get away

Time, you always needed more time
But all we've ever had is time
So now this is the last time, but I'll be fine

Time. Our whole life revolves around time.  You start out as an infant, you start your education at this moment in your life, start your career at this point of time, and retire at another.  You wake up in the morning, go to school from 8 am to 2:50 pm, and sleep at night.  Our whole lives revolve around time. Why is the human being so fascinated by time?

            There is a Chinese proverb that is roughly translated to “Time is more valuable than money.  You can get more money, but you cannot get more time”.  In other words, time is everything.

            And yet, so many people don’t value time until it is too late. These people mainly consist of students, including me.  Why else does everyone procrastinate?  We use our time to surf the internet, chat with friends, and play games, etcetera.  By the time we realize that our clock is ticking away slowly, it’s too late.  We scramble to finish our homework, study, and do whatever is necessary.  However, this only creates rubbish.  I’ll admit that even this blog post is a piece that I created after some procrastination.  Don’t ask me why.  I’ll just come up with some excuses such as “I had too much homework” or “I had a bunch of tests the next day”.  Most of which is bullshit. 

            In reality, I looked at the assignment and thought to myself, “It’s too time-consuming.  I’ll do it later”.  HA.  What a joke.  As the deadline creeps closer and closer, you get more and more frantic, but still you don’t move to do that simple assignment.  Why?  This time, I’m not going to answer this question, because I still don’t know why.  It just happens to be in my nature, I guess. 

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Show Luo-Love is Wordless (I will translate these lyrics soon)

感動發生的前奏 是種沉默

Gan dong fa sheng de qian zou shi zhong chen mo

幸福就是連微笑 都能是溝通

Xing fu jiu shi lain wei xiao dou neng shi gou tong

用交纏的雙手親吻不夠 眼神也要抱個夠

Yong jiao chan de shuang shou qing bu gou yan shen ye yao bao ge gou

我不怕愛洩露 在擁擠的街頭

Wo bu pa ai xie lou zai yong ji de jie tou

[Chorus]

有些心裡的話真的不用說

You xie xin li de hua zhen de bu yong shuo

許多擔心的淚再也不要流

Xu duo dan xin de lei zai ye bu yao liu

最艱難的時候 我們的愛已變成熟

Zui jian nan de shi hou wo men de ai yi bian cheng shou

兩個人圍成 不被干擾的宇宙 深情不動

Liang ge ren wei cheng bu bei gan rao de yu zhou shen qing bu dong

一起顛簸過才懂 你的溫柔

Yi qi dian bo guo cai dong ni de wen rou

體貼就是哭不哭 都肯去街上

Ti tie jiu shi ku bu ku dou ken qu jie shang

愛的不需要任何理由 就像反射的動作

Ai de bu xu yao ren he li you jiu xiang fan shi ye de dong zuo

你只要皺眉頭 我胸口也會痛

Ni zhi yao zhou mei tou wo xiong kou ye hui tong

Repeat Chorus

你陪著我奮鬥 分不清自己要什麼 卻不曾忘記我 每個夢

Ni pei zhe wo fen dou fen bu qing zi ji yao shen me que bu ceng wang ji wo mei ge meng

有些心裡的話真的不用說

You xie xin li de hua zhen de bu yong shuo

你許多擔心的淚再也不要流

Ni xu duo dan xin de lei zai ye bu yao liu

經歷了那麼多 我們的愛已太濃厚

Jing li le na me duo wo men de ai yi tai nong hou

謠言算什麼 寧可安靜的擁抱 交換擁有

Yao yan suan shen me ning ke an jing de yong bao jiao huan yong you

Repeat Chorus

Gift-giving is a fundamental element in relationships in general, be it family, friendship, or romantic relationships.  For me, my least favorite is definitely exchanging gifts with your "other half".

Every single time a holiday or special occasion comes up, I start to worry about what type of present I'll receive, and what I should give them.  I don't have a job or my own car, and I don't want to tell my parents that I need a gift for my boyfriend (my mom will want to be included in the process, and my dad doesn't want me dating until I've graduated from college).  Therefore, I'm always forced to think up ideas on my own and sneak out to buy them. Also, when the boyfriend remembers the one-month anniversary and the girlfriend doesn't, it is very difficult to think of a last-minute present.

In addition, all of my boyfriends give stuffed animals.  There's nothing wrong with stuffed animals, but when I get Hello Kitty or Domo....sorry, where'd you get the idea that I'm a typical Asian girl?  Once, my boyfriend gave me flowers while I was thinking of breaking up with him.  To say the very least, it was awkward.

Obviously, I haven't had the best experiences with gift-giving, and it's a lot easier to say "it's the effort that  counts" than to believe it.

Un Monde Sans Danger

For my group's innovation project, we want to paint our school's parking lot with inspirational messages on each parking space.  It won't look exactly like this, and we probably won't use this quote, but here's an example:

Here is one that a group member posted on our Facebook page that I found simply amazing:

The purpose of this project is to help improve our student's attitudes towards the school day ahead of them.  Many who drive to school, such as myself, need a slight mood lifter before starting six hours of nonstop sitting and trying to pay attention to their teacher's lectures.  I'm not exactly a morning person, and yet I have to wake up every morning at 6 AM.  My mom is used to me being grumpy and not wanting to talk at all during breakfast.  During zero period through second period, I am usually still a walking dead.  It's tough being a student, but a small gesture or a few words can always bring a smile to someone's face.  

In addition, our school doesn't really have anything artsy or unique about it, and so something like this would be a great addition.  So far we've gotten approval from our school principle and are working on a proposal for our school district.  In addition, we've counted how many parking lots to makeover (100 total), measured the height and width of each space, and decided how and where we will paint the messages/drawings on the lots.  

If you would like, please follow us!~ 

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ParkAndPonder

Here's a group member's blog post about this project!:  http://theinkmenagerie.wordpress.com/2013/12/15/qa-quoting-innovation/