G-Dragon-Crooked

Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

I scream and get dizzy
I vent out of boredom to other couples
I start fights for no reason like a town gangster
Sometimes, I purposely shake my leg, crookedly
The main characters of the movie called this world is you and me
A lonely island, lost and wandering
The empty streets are filled with those who are alone
Unlike my heart, the weather is so damn nice

I used to believe in you and I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end

Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

I'll put on thick eyeliner, use a whole can of hairspray
Leather pants, leather jacket with a frown
I want to hide my pain and become even more crooked
So you can feel sorry, I’ll spit toward the sky
You’re scared of my crude words and my rough eyes
But actually, I’m afraid, I want to go back but I have nowhere to go
I want to love but no one to love, what am I supposed to do?
I can’t turn it back

I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end

Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

Will you not say anything for me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would be this hard (I miss you)
Will you be my friend tonight?
On this good day, this beautiful day, this day where I miss you
Tonight, I’ll be crooked

"And it never even occurs to them their certainty that they are different is what makes them the same".  This quote from Brief Interviews With Hideous Men by David Foster Wallace really got me, especially with college applications coming up.  I'm still working on my personal statements, and the advice I often see and hear is to be unique and try to stand out from the rest of the group.  And that, my friend, is very hard to do.   

Many times, I catch myself feeling above everyone else.  No, I don't mean that I'm better than everyone else, but I that sometimes I feel like I can observe them in a sort of omnipotent way.  

I have been really stressed out about college applications lately, especially about letters of recommendation and my essays.  I'm afraid that I won't be able to show my individualism.  Of course, all this fear is just a mindset, and to get rid of it, all I have to do is be crooked and think differently.

G Dragon-That XX

Walking on the street, I bumped into your man (Yeah I saw him)

I didn't want to believe it, but my hunch turned out right (I told you)

He’s not wearing that ring you gave him, there’s another girl by his side

But I've said enough (I don’t wanna hurt you)

Now you’re getting angry with me (Why?)

You say “He’s definitely not that kind of person” (Sure you’re right)

Seeing your eyes, I reply that I probably got it wrong

See, I lied for you (I’m sorry)

I hate that you don’t understand me

I hate all this waiting

Let go of his hand (break it off with him)

When you’re sad, I feel like I’m dying

That XX, what does he have that I don’t

Why can’t I have you

That XX doesn't love you

How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

When you speak of him, you look so happy (you look happy)

It’s good that you can be this happy (I’m happy)

You say you really love him, want to be with him forever

You trust him completely (I don’t know what to say no more)


Your friends all know that guy (yup they know)

It’s so obvious, why can’t you see (it’s you)

They say love is blind, Oh baby, you’re so blind

Please, I beg you, break it off

Oh I hate that you don’t understand me

I hate all this waiting
Let go of his hand (break it off with him)

When you’re sad, I feel like I’m dying

That XX, what does he have that I don’t

Why can’t I have you

That XX doesn't love you

How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

(Rap)Expensive cars, beautiful clothes, high-class restaurants, they all suit you well

But that XX beside you, he doesn't suit you, he really doesn't

He smiles like a hypocrite with you, brushing your face and hair

But he’s thinking of another woman for sure, how dare he

The amount of tears you've cried, I want to make you happy by the same amount, baby

Rather than going through the pain alone, share some with me, baby

Please look at me, why can’t you realize that I am your love

Why are you the only one who doesn't know

That XX, what does he have that I don’t

Why can’t I have you

That XX doesn't love you

How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

That XX, what does he have that I don’t

Why can’t I have you

That XX doesn't love you

How much longer are you going to cry yourself silly?

That XX is basically the censored form for that bastard.   I don't really know why reading Othello by Shakespeare made me think of this song.  The only plausible reason is probably because my brain screams "bastard" when Iago 's scheming behind his "friends'" backs.  It's not much of a reason, but I guess it's good enough.  Especially if there turns out to be more parallels between That XX and Othello than I first expected.  

If put into Othello, That XX would be sung by Othello himself.  He would be mourning the loss of Desdemona's love, who he believes to be cheating with Cassio, his lieutenant.  Cassio, on the other hand, turns to prostitutes such as Bianca, who happens to love Cassio.  He, however, laughs at her affection and merrily speaks about her with Iago, without thinking too seriously about their future.  

Othello doesn't want to believe that the chaste Desdemona would cheat on him with Cassio, but justifies his beliefs with Iago's words and the fact that the handkerchief he had given Desdemona as a gift was seen in Cassio's hands.  In addition, he thought Cassio was laughing about Desdemona with Iago, though he was actually laughing about Bianca.  The lieutenant's actions show that he doesn't really love Bianca (or in Othello's eyes, Desdemona) and that he is just playing around.  

After Cassio falls from the position of lieutenant, Desdemona often mentions his name in Othello's vicinity, hoping to help her loyal friend.  Othello, however, mistakes that to be caused by her love to Cassio and is furious.  He slaps Desdemona and causes her to cry, deaf to her pleas of innocence.  If he had only listened to her confessions, he would have realized that she was not cheating on him.